i know where you are coming from same for me, when i stopped riding winter of 88 , i stopped going just seeing the odd meeting for a good 15 years, only started going again regular when the new track opened at Bellevue, was there for the 1st meeting that turned into a farce, but knew that track would be good once it was put right. taking my dad for the last years he had left in his life and the reason i had a go, at racing. Still enjoy it even going to Poland to watch meetings, but will get by if no premiere league racing. this year, getting to old now for it to be the centre of my life.