Starman2006

Im hoping he's just a stop gap mate. IF, Chris returns and i hope these stumblling blocks/red tape can be sorted he will be fine, and with everybody behind him it will give him and the team a lift, its not gone well and riders are under performing for whatever reason. I felt sorry for james as i said in another post, he went out of his way to fund new equipment and a 2nd nights racing. Before he left he scored paid 11 at Sheffield, he was not going to improve overnight but he would have got there , he is also the type of rider i would like to see John Davis get hold of to impriove his gating tech, like he did the poor late Lee Richardson. James was riding to his average and in time would have improved. But Matt has to do what he thinks is right for the club fans and sponsors in order to make the play off's, the club is built on success, and we dont take failier lightly.

Hopefully is a short term thing untill Chris sorts things out. Its not been a good start for us, not what we wanted.

Amen, very much so sid thank you. I met a girl at the brain injury group last friday who had the same op as me. She spent 11 days on ITU, then when she came out of hospital didnt leave the house for 5 mths. she had all the same post op symptoms concurrant with this op ie the panic attacks the extreme tiredness fatigue. She has half an eye on her right side . She could not believe i was sitting there like i am. I have so many people , poole fans coming up to me, shaking my hand and asking as to my welbeing, fans say they pray for me its humbling mate. I have OT's drs consultants my surgeon who is always, happy to talk if he's not in theatre. my GP who i have known sinse he was a medical student. As i have said before, the tumour was 2 inchs in diameter totally benign, it was a very deliacate operation. Some patients come out of this and not able to eat whole food, it has to be liquidised, i went straight on to solids without giving it a second thought. the following day i was up out of bed talking to the other patients My surgeon says it is highly, unlikely it will come back, they got it all out what they could see with the naked eyes, ie microscoped glasses, and the CT scan the following day backed that up. I have all my faculties i walk a lot, but have done no proper exercises for 5 mths, i have a physio coming to my house in 2 weeks time to work with me to sort out what i can do all arranged by the brain injury OT team. atm my nose is bunged up and my ears are going mad, the fluid sits then runs like a waterfall, you think its running down your face, but its not. Nothing is set in stone mate, so i want to do what i can, bucket list while i can, we are only here a short time in reality, so you have to do that, this has changed my life outlook big time, i will have MRI scans for the next 4 years, they will be a worry, everytime. But, i say to all those suffering from depression and axniety, ask yourself the question, why ? write it down if nessercary ask questions, believe me, ive been through hell and back but, there are a lot worse than me, and those that sadly dont make it. You are alive, you can go out you can do what you want to do. Theres a 43 yr old lad who comes to the headway group who is confined to a motorised wheelchair, his car was hit by a lorry 20 years ago whist the prat in the lorry was on his mobile, imagine what he went through, i wouldnt like to guess. There are many selfish people in this world, take a walk round the cancer wards or the Neuro surgical wards, they might just think differently. I owe my life to my surgeon, and a very dear friend of mine jayne, who i have known for 37 years who was before she retired senior Nursing coo- ordinator of poole maternity unit i went to see her before christmas she took me to cas, had she not been there, because she worked odd days gawd knows what might have happened to me. Whilst in poole general, i had a massive panic attack where my blood went wrong that was very scary, i lost hair in the op i have a numb righthandside of my head, but, im here im living walking talking seeing hearing and am very very greatful for that. It could have been oh so much worse. and i will always, remember that.

Thank you Aces 51. still a long way to go though.

Quite right Danny. it doesnt always work for a lot of people, but you will find some who will say, oh its worked for me to save face. As you and a lot on here know, ive just had a major brain tumour op in the last five months, im still recovering slowly. and its still very scary. I also suffer from Tinitus, im finding it hard to get it back down to the level it was before the op, hopefully it will but its not going to happen in 5 minutes. Axniety comes in different forms, mine stemmed from my panic attacks concurrant with this operation, id go to bed worrying if i was going to have one that night, they are not nice. Depression lives here, this is very hard, although ive come out, fairing better than a lot do after this op, its still hard and worrying, believe me, ive heard some stories from people who have had this op, ive been very, very lucky and had a very, good surgeon. but you have to occupy your mind to take it away, go for a walk in my case look at some racing form and breding or go for a walk, go and look round the shops, put on a DVD you know, you will watch, do something to take your mind away from any negative thoughts, take on positive thoughts. Not easy but it can be done. Willpower. Sometimes its good to talk to somebody who doesnt know you, but it would be far better to talk to somebody who does, providing they are re-assuring have patience and helpful. We all know what a problem it is getting an appointment with YOUR GP, but if you have questions you must ask, and your Dr will listen. make an appointment to see him/her as many times as you like, dont feel guilty, but you have to ask, it wont get offered., the same as if you speak to a specialist. Its also good to speak to somebody that has been through the same thing that gives you an insight, to hopefully, deal with it better. fight or flight, it works, but you have to make it happen. I am now in a position to talk to anybody who's had this op, i can give them an insight as to what to expect.. re-assurance these panic attacks do subside, the titainium pins will not move, dont do to much, you do get fatigued its normal. try not to get stressed , very hard nowadays, enlist as much help as you can from reliatives and friends/neighbours. but in my case you have to do it all, by the book, you dont bugger about with the Brain. Everybody has a different reason for there Aniety and depression, you have to find a way of dealing with it. In the meantime, my ears are singing like bloody canaries, and the head fluid is driving me round the bend, 1 2 3 and four...

I dont really get that one, or are you just trying to be funny.

Funnily enough Steve, Brady made his two worst starts off the two worst gates.

If thats the only pleasure you get then i feel really sorry for you.

Plenty of trolls and nasty people on here mate. Several have gone on ignore. I can count the decent posters on two hands nowadays sadly. there was some good conversation and banter going on today, sadly ruined by the mindless few.

Both Chris and Darcy were a joy to watch and have in the Poole team.

Bet you would like to be in my shoes as well. There's been some fair debate today then you turned up, Now who's the idiot...

Not all poles are not suited to these shores, we've had some very good poles ride for us. oh, and sunstrom is not polish..

Thats your opinion but i dont think im going to lose any sleep over what you think personally.

The route of the problem lays with the riders mate. Like any team manager, once the riders leave the pit gate it is out of Neils hands. anything can go wrong. Same as a trainer giving instructions to a jock, once he leaves the parade ring its out of the trainers hands, anything can go wrong in the race, and sometimes does. especially in a big field of Handicappers where you get no sort of run or with 12 flights of hurdles or fences in your way.

The problem lays with the riders mate. When they leave the pit gate its out of Neils hands. They have to be professional enough to find the right set ups. We have had an indifferent start at home, due to the lovely british weather, and the fact that Glyn is still getting to grips with the track, and he does work with the riders But everybody knows Matt, if things do not improve by say june then things will change, but at this moment in time i dont think to many poole fans will be panicking ... Yet..

Wasnt coming from me mate. This team was built on POTENTIAL, and at the moment we are sruggling to get out of 1st gear. Nothing is given to you on a plate, you have to make it it happen. But there's no panicking from me, we are only 3 pts off the 4th side and 5 off the 3rd. its still reliatively early days, and plenty of time to put things right.

Thanks mate. If people are sivel and post constructivly to me then i will respond. But i certainly do not respond to the sad posters who just like to try and cause an arguement.. Im not interested. Im still recovering from a major tumour op, and i have no time for arguements.

Sorry, but i just spat all my sandwiches out. Nice one...

3pts off the 4th team and 5 off the 3rd. Im certainly not panicking .

Nothing wrong with the manager mate, you should know yourself, once those pit gates close its out of his hands, anything can go wrong in a race. Same as when the trainer gives a jock instructions, 9 times out of 10 he will carry them out, but occasionally something will go wrong in the race which is beyond his control.

Good post Grachan..

He is. Did a lot of testing inthe winter, apparantly likes them.

I dont think he's a speedway fan mate, along with quite a few on here. This forum appart from the likes of Bald bloke A Orlov Sid the robin Sugerray skidder Steve Brum, in small doses, KL Danny and even Steve Shovlar who can post some good stuff, but he's hated for his loyaty to our club. Has gone to the dogs, full of bullies wind up merchants. Im very suprised that Phil has not complentated pulling the plug. Sad to see really.

At least we was a bit more competitive to a point. But we need to be more consistant, through out the side.

Doesn't sound good Steve. But at least we are being competitive.